funny things life brings

I don't know what words are right. All I do know is that sometimes life throws you one wicked curve ball. I love Taylor to bits but sometimes I find it hard to figure out what she needs. I know she needs food, shelter, water, and a clean place to live. Man is it hard to do all that in one day with her crying and my mind snapping. I takes med.s for depression and boy does that throw my life threw a loop. I am a Bipolar mom. What that means I haven't really figured out. I don't want my daughter to be embarrassed of me. I don't want her to fear me. How does someone deal with that? I really don't know. I do know that with this blog I might be able to figure things out. I am scared to lose John or Taylor. I will do what ever I can to make sure I won't. I love them both dearly and want nothing more then to see us all happy and stable. I know with this disorder that it will be hard and long bumpy road ahead of us. But one thing that keeps me smiling is that I won't go threw this alone. I for one will try my hardest to relearn how to be a mother, wife, and lover just to make sure my family stays happy. I want nothing more then to see them smile and be happy.