wonder if anyone still reads my blog

if you still read this blog let me know. I will start writing here also. I am curious if I should keep this blog.

cloth

so i am doing cloth dipes. taylor is doing so well on them. i am so happy with them. its alot easier then people think. i think it should be offered to purchase in major stores but prolly never.

howdy

So i am back in tn. glad to be back. i missed it. john and i are working on things. ideally it would be nice to be completely back in working order. only time will tell. i am searching for a job at the momment. taylor is trying to learn how to walk. she is all over the place now days. she is one and a very happy baby. i am proud of her for the way she has become. sigh. that is all for now.

sooo

i have been gone from tn for going on over a month now. i left just to have a break and clear my head. it turned into a divorce. funny thing. i can't seem to find a husband that won't try to own me. yes john i said that and you can think what you want. i can bet anyone 10 bucks he will im or email or call and bitch about this post. but to be quiet honest i don't care. i am sick of hiding how i feel. i am not saying that this isn't partly my fault but when i came down here it was cause i needed to figure things out. while up there i had alot of pressure to rush and do it his way. i am sorry but i am my own person and have my own feelings. i control my life not anyone else. everyone else is a factor on my life but not what controls it. i am sick of everyone around me with maturity issues. and that means everyone around me. why can't people grow up away from the highschool drama?
oh on a good note. i have a part time job which i actually enjoy quiet a bit! i am working everyday but sat. sun. and i spend those days with taylor. she is the center of my world and that is how it is going to stay. my car needs some work but i will get it done. its an old car and needs maintance work. oh well right. taylor is calling me mama now!!!!! wooohoooooo she says it!!!!!!!!!! she is in cloth diapers fully. my mom will put a dispoise on her. while i am at work but i change her when i get in. since i put her in full cloth she has no more rash. i have a horrid chest cold but can't afford to see the doctor right now. wish i could. we are hoping it doesn't go any further then just a chest cold. i am working on putting taylor fully on a sippy cup. and starting to wheen her off her paci. she is really moving more here. she is like all over the place!!!!! she is so big. when i can i will try to upload pics. i am staying true to my wedding band. even thou we both know its over. i just can't bare to remove it. it hurts to much. i love him. i always will. but i can't live with him. sigh. things are rather strange right now. i will update more as it comes to me. sorry for the sucky grammar.


HUGS TO ALL

I was tagged by Tiffany  over a day in the life of tiffany at for this meme.

* Upon receiving this tag, immediately perform a screen capture of your desktop. It is best that no icons be deleted before the screen capture so as to add to the element of fun. You can do a screen capture by: Going to your desktop and pressing the Print Scan (PrtScn) key. Open a graphics program (like Picture Manager, Paint, or Photoshop) and do a Paste (CTRL + V). If you wish, you can “edit” the image, before saving it.

* Post the picture on your blog. You can also give a short explanation on the look of your desktop just below it if you want. You can explain why you preferred such a look or why is it full of icons–things like that.* Tag five people, and ask them to give you a free view of their desktops as well.


its just what life needs. 

 

I tag i dont' know many people so i only tag one. hope its ok.

jessica